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Existentialism: Meaning Versus Meaninglessness
[DISCLAIMER] When serving as military police (MP) while in the United States Marine Corps, assigned to Camp Kinser (1997-1999), I befriended a fellow Texan to whom I’ll refer as “Jugador.” He and I were fairly close when stationed in Okinawa, Japan. However, so went the familiar phrase when I served in the military, Jugador was an “out of sight, out of mind” type of friend. This expression is used to mean that a person stops thinking about something or someone if he or sh

Deric Hollings
May 1916 min read


Gallows Humor: Nihilist Penguin
[ DISCLAIMER ] Photo credit (edited), fair use Admittedly, I enjoy gallows humor (a style of comedy which makes light of subject matter that is generally considered taboo, particularly subjects that are typically considered serious or painful to discuss, aiming to influence discomfort, serious thought , and amusement for their audience). Since having begun the informal practice of life coaching in 1991, beginning formal practice of psychotherapy in 2011, I’ve come t

Deric Hollings
Jan 299 min read


The Gift of Memory Lives On
[ DISCLAIMER ] On their 2011 album Professional Dreamers , a hip hop group from Västerås, Sweden known as Looptroop Rockers released...

Deric Hollings
Jun 18, 20258 min read


Do or Do Not, You Will Regret It either Way
[ DISCLAIMER ] According to the American Psychological Association (APA), regret is defined as an emotional response to remembrance of...

Deric Hollings
May 14, 20257 min read


You Will Realize You Are Dying Before Your Time
[ DISCLAIMER ] Photo credit , artist: Don Aguillo , fair use In childhood, I enjoyed watching Masters of the Universe and ThunderCats...

Deric Hollings
Apr 8, 20254 min read


I Am Not Afraid to Die
[ DISCLAIMER ] Over the past several years, I’ve had many conversations with a fellow United States (U.S.) Marine Corps veteran...

Deric Hollings
Feb 4, 20257 min read


All the Years
[ DISCLAIMER ] In 2024, lyricist Joell Ortiz and production team The Heatmakerz released the album W.A.R. (With All Respect) . The...

Deric Hollings
Jan 13, 20255 min read


I'll Probably Lose Everything That I Got One Day
[ DISCLAIMER ] Call it what you will, “oldies,” “soul music,” “doo-wop,” or “R&B,” I was raised on tunes which were popular during the...

Deric Hollings
Dec 27, 20245 min read


O Death
[DISCLAIMER] Photo credit (edited), fair use Having once subscribed to the Judeo-Christian values under which I was raised, I formerly...

Deric Hollings
Mar 26, 20246 min read


Perverse Incentives
[ DISCLAIMER ] Definition and examples A “perverse incentive” may be defined as a negative unintended consequence of a performance...

Deric Hollings
Feb 10, 20248 min read


This Ride Inevitably Ends
[DISCLAIMER] Photo credit, fair use Despite their many shortcomings, I was fortunate enough to be raised by parents who didn’t lie to me...

Deric Hollings
Feb 6, 20245 min read


How Would You Like to be Remembered?
[DISCLAIMER] Photo credit, photographer: Marcela Patino, fair use My dear friend “Jammies,” a professional model and makeup artist,...

Deric Hollings
Jan 31, 20243 min read


One Day, You're Here...
[DISCLAIMER] When stationed in Okinawa as a Marine from ’97 to ’99, I met a fellow military police officer, “Nat” (female), who was also...

Deric Hollings
Dec 3, 20236 min read


The Path You Accept
[DISCLAIMER] I recall that in early adulthood I came to appreciate “The Road Not Taken” by Robert Frost. In particular, the fourth stanza...

Deric Hollings
Oct 3, 20238 min read


You're Gonna Die Someday
[DISCLAIMER] In a blogpost entitled You Gon’ Die: The Existential Window, I stated: “In 2010, when attending a graduate-level counseling...

Deric Hollings
Sep 22, 20234 min read


Six Feet Deep
[DISCLAIMER] “O death, where is thy sting? O grave, where is thy victory?” – 1 Corinthians 15:55 When I graduated high school in 1995, I...

Deric Hollings
Jun 24, 20235 min read


You Gon' Die: The Existential Window
[DISCLAIMER] “The ‘therapeutic window’. What a delicious term for the interruption of medical treatment! Might you perhaps hurl yourself...

Deric Hollings
Sep 3, 20227 min read


What the Future Holds
[DISCLAIMER] There are a number of rap groups—duos, trios, etc.—that are heavily intertwined with various periods of my life. One such...

Deric Hollings
Jun 30, 20229 min read


Stoically Existential
[ DISCLAIMER ] It’s relatively easy for me to highlight mental and behavioral health examples in rap. Rigid and extreme attitudes are commonly expressed through use of should, must, or ought statements within the musical genre. For example, in Skyzoo’s song “ Bodega Flowers ,” Aaria’s melodic chorus states, “I want flowers, but I don’t wanna tell you I want flowers. ‘Cause then you just gon’ get me flowers, ‘cause I want flowers. But I want you to gimme flowers, ‘cause y

Deric Hollings
May 28, 20226 min read
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